Tea Dinosaur

people my age are getting pregnant and married and i can’t even order a pizza over the phone

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• The original post only has US helplines. I've added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.
• Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
• Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
• LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
• Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
• Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
• Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
• Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
• Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
• Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
• Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
• Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453
• UK Helplines:
• Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org
• Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111
• Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk
• Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk
• b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk
• b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)
• Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk
• Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600
• Drinkline: 0800 9178282
• Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk
• Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

You know what my dad said when I told him about the whole ocd group dilemma thing?

“Maybe being around the ocd people will make you realize that you’re not that bad off”

And then I told my mom and she said the same thing.

Gee thanks, not like I needed more reasons to think that my problems aren’t bad enough for me to be seeking out help.

bridgetj-searchingfortuna:

On the bright side: thank you Shonda Rhimes for not killing Jackson. I really appreciate it.

But seriously though.  How are all the characters on Grey’s not balled up in a corner somewhere questioning their existence at this point?

I am regretting this group decision…

Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if it focused on obsessive compulsive spectrum as well as general ocd, but it doesn’t and I’m not going to feel like I belong there, which is only going to make it harder to speak up and challenge my S.A.D.

I really think it would be easier to be in a more general group like the psychotherapy or the cbt one, I would be with a bunch of different people with a bunch of different problems and I’d be cool with that. But to be in a room where I am the odd one out? Fuck no, can’t do it.

I am meeting with him next Wed afternoon, and the first group is that evening so I will talk to him about it then and maybe (hopefully) I can get out of the ocd group. Might mean I can’t see him one on one though, but I’m not attached yet, so it’s not a big deal. (He is British though, and I enjoy his accent, which might be the only reason worth staying at this point, haha).

I am 150% sure that was my ex I was walking behind just now.

And I avoided that shit like the plague. Not because I was scared of running into him. But because I still have not deciphered a non-awkward way to congratulate him on baby.

I have no idea why my head thinks the way it thinks.

I still have not told my psychologist about the group therapy thing.

Whoops.

The form I just signed gives this new place permission to converse with other professionals about me, so I guess I should tell him, eh. (I hope they don’t talk to him until AFTER Thursday… uh oh)

I’ll probably go in and be like:

“So I did something, and I didn’t tell you because I thought you would react negatively.  But I told myself I would tell you eventually, and I haven’t because the longer I wait the worse it gets and now I don’t really have a choice…”

And he’ll probably say:

“What is it that you want to tell me”

And I’ll rant:

“I was freaking out about money awhile ago, as I do, and I called a bunch of other places because I thought I was going to leave you.  And I got a call from a group therapy place and so I referred myself, and then I decided I didn’t want to leave you.  But this place is covered by OHIP and if it helps, great, if it doesn’t at least I’m not paying for it.  But they put me in an ocd group, which I really don’t understand.  And I’ve already talked to the guy running it and he doesn’t really get why I’m in that group either, but I talked to him about the skin picking because that’s the only thing that makes any sense from what I wrote on the referral sheet and he said that we’ll continue the one on one meetings and that I can come to the group if I want because I told him I was also trying to challenge my social anxiety in groups of people.  But the group is mainly focused on general ocd, but I should come and share anyways.  He’s trying to find another group that would be better suited for me though. And I signed a form saying that they could talk to other professionals working with me, so I am telling you so you don’t get like a surprise phone call or something. And don’t hate me please.”

To which he will most likely look at me like I’m a nut-job.

Why must I put off telling people things!

So I met with the ocd group guy for intake. I told him about the skin picking, social anxiety, and mentioned that I have sexual anxiety but didnt go into details. He’s said that the group focuses more on classic (my word) ocd and not really spectrum disorders. So he doesn’t quite understand why I was put into this group either. But I did say that I applied for group therapy also to challenge my social anxiety. So im going to continue meeting with him one on one and go to the group anyways (unless he finds a different one for me) where I can talk about it if I want, but mainly just to do what I wanted which is challenge my social anxiety. So yeah, kind of hoping I get switched to a cbt group though.

i get really happy when it’s not me who starts the conversation because that removes so much anxiety about whether i’m bothering the person or if they secretly hate me even if i know that’s not true 

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